Thursday, June 24, 2010

What disappointment!!!!!

As you may or may not be aware i have been trying to lose weight and it was going really well at least steady. My parents came to town and all hell broke loose. I didn't go to the gym and I was eating like it was going out of style. So i gained some of the weight back. Which I am ok with because I knew it was going to happen. I went back to the gym for the first couple of time and it is hard as hell to get back on the elliptical bike. I used to an hour with no problem now i have to stop at the 30 minute mark and take a break. Then the next couple of workout I was actually getting my mojo back because i was doing the full hour non stop. So now I have discovered that there is a lump in my back I have no idea what it is. At first i thought it was just a pimple and would have Con. pop the damn thing because it was bothering me. Well when he finally had off and was getting ready to pop it (he gets very excited for some reason for popping pimples, I will never understand) He tells me that he can not pop it because it is not through the skin yet. I was highly disappointed because it feels like this big ball of pressure in my back. It has gotten to the point to where i can not even sit comfortably in a chair and have my back against it. So now I cant even workout and i am eating ok but not like i should be eating and it is just getting me more and more upset. I am going to have to go to the Dr. tomorrow which I am not to thrilled of because I just don't like them. Yes, I do work in a hospital but that is besides the point. So when i got back from vacation they changed my desk to another area of the office. That is fine with me because i really don't care where i sit. however there was someone else already sitting in my seat so i had no chance to get all of my personal things which is kind of messed up because it is bad enough that I have been out of the office for this time and have worked backed up and so many emails and now on top of that I have to figure out where they put all my stuff and reorganize my work space. I think I am going to have to go in this weekend and get everything together and try to get some of the back log worked on. It is funny today my supervisor asked me if I wanted to go to another team. At first I thought this was a trick question. She was really being serious but the way i think about it is this I am going to be leaving this job in a couple of months anyway what is the sense of me rocking the boat now. Anyhow if they really cared of what I thought they would have asked me where i would of like to go in the beginning of all of this. Well that is all for now I hope everything turns out all right with my back and it is nothing serious. I am not sure i could another serious problem. Have a great night where ever you are UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN...

Sunday, June 20, 2010

First Offical Weigh In

Well for the purpose of this blog today was the first official weigh in. I tip the scales at 239.4. It is not that bad as I started at 245 and went down to 232. I know what you are thinking why in the hell did you go gain 7lbs. Well to be honest with you my parents came to town and I didn't go to the gym and I was eating all these foods that i really shouldn't have been eating. Now I am not blaming my parents for my gains I truly could have gone to the gym while they were here. I could have just eaten my regular meals that I would have eatin if they were not here. However temptation got the better of me. That is something that I am just going to have to learn. Just because i am on a vacation or have family over does not give me the right to pig out on anything i want and to miss out on gym time. Am I piss off that i have gain seven pounds back. I am not pissed off but, I am not happy with it either. At this point the only thing I can do is move forward, eat right and work hard. Speaking of working hard I went to the gym for the second day in a row. It was not my best workout but it was better then not doing one at all. I don't know what the hell happened to me how could all of my stamina be gone in a matter of a week and a half. The only thing I can say is with each work out it gets better and better and have more of a flow my mind say i want to stop over and over. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN REMEMBER:
Your body is the baggage you must carry through life. The more excess the baggage, the shorter the trip.
Arnold H. Glasgow

Loosing Weight




Good Afternoon, I am in the process of trying to get back down to 190lbs. This is the wieght I was before I met my husband. We have been together for a little under 4.5 years. Since that time I really haven't been going to the gym as regularly as I should. I have not been eating all the right foods as as I should hence I am in the situtaion I am in right now. This blog however is not just going to be about my weightloss as that would be very boring indeed therefor I am going to use this blog as a daily journal. It will be theraputic in the sense it will allow me to get things off my chest that I might not otherwise get to say or just think out loud about. So if you happen to read this I hope you enjoy it and please feel free to leave any comments or questions.